Boobie Update, anyone?

For those who are following the story, my lump has vanished. Its gone, completely no more. This points to a hormonal problem or a cyst. Endometriosis is a suspect. This would also account for the menstrual cramps Ive been having when not on (or anywhere near) my period. Because the lump is gone, the only way to find out what is going on would be to run various tests that would then have to be sent to a lab, therefore they would be recorded on my medical record. The tests are going to have to wait until the 1st of March when my insurance starts up.

As to why the lump vanished, here is my hypothesis: A customer and friend of mine instructed me to inform my partner that the lump was a consequence of minimal affection given to my breasts. I informed him of this and the problem was promptly addressed. Apparently, my breast just wanted some kisses.

Once I get set up for testing I will update you all.

Again, for real?

This is getting silly.

I was approved for health insurance! Score!

Except that its not effective until 3/1/09. There is a lump in my breast now, I want to have it looked at now.

I still cant bring myself to let my father in law give me a breast exam, the thought makes all of my hairs stand on end.

Ive cut out all of my caffeine (it has been replaces with horrible headaches and nausea, I think I may be slightly addicted), Im hoping that will make it magically vanish.

I believe. ;)

For real?

So, Im cleaning my house in my tank top and its hot. I wipe the sweat off of my chest and then feel this tiny pain, like a light bruise. So, I decide the best thing to do is go back to that spot and poke at it.

Its a massive lump.

There is a massive lump on my breast and I have no health insurance. So, I do the first thing that comes to mind. Call my mommy.

She proceeds to tell the entire family, then friends of the family, then just friends. Apparently once I tell her the information becomes public information.

The next day Im in tears. My great grandmother and my grandmother had breast cancer. Im only 23, this is impossible. Its probably a cyst. I take the next morning off from work so that I can spend a few hours with my partner, I need comforting. We get up, make some cinnamon rolls, its great.

Then I get an e-mail from my cousin, a text message from my mom's employee, and a call from my aunt all offering there sympathy. Did I die and just not realize it? Many of them made it a point to note hair loss. It really helped to calm me down. Do they know I havent been to the doctor yet, that no one is saying cancer?

My partner's father is an OBGYN. We called him immediately, he thinks Im too young for cancer and that its likely a cyst. Then again, breast cancer runs in my family... He offers to give me a breast exam for free while Im trying to figure out what to do as far as insurance goes.

Im touched, but I dont want to be touched. For now, Im going to pass.

My application and credit card information is with the insurance company, 7-10 days. So, no doctors appointment, no mammogram, no ultrasound for 7-10 days. No answers for 7-10 days.

Im really scared.